deep breath

Whoa. So tomorrow is my last day here in NY. Today I picked up the moving truck with my father in law and then I went to a "going away dinner" at Matt's grandparents. I wasn't expecting gifts but I got tons! It was so awesome. My favorite being this huge pasta cooking pot with a strainer built in.


"Ooooo ahhhhh lol."

Anyways... Im freakin out about this whole move. I dont know how everyone does it!!! I cant wait to just lay on my new couch in NC in watch tv haha.
Im watching my recordings of Planet Earth one more time before I leave and disconnect from this DVR. I think on this desert episode I found Cody's ancestors hah.
The "Fennec Fox"




Haha. Oh man. Those ears scream cody!
see it? haha.
Welllllllllllllllll. I suppose my next post wont be until I get internet hopefully Sunday!
But feel free to comment... noone ever does :( lol

Breaking point?

So. Today my day started out okay. I slept pretty late until like 10:15. After I moped around the house for awhile, my mom, cody, and I went downtown. We got Cody a training clicker and food at Pet Smart. Then we went to Wegmans where I spent way too much money on cleaning stuff for the house in NC so that when I get there if its not up to my "standards" (especially the toilet) I can clean it right away. Then we came home...
Matt was supposed to call today. He hasn't..... Im super stressed out with the move, packing, money, him being gone, etc. So I started feeling a little down. I always know not to worry but with all the other stress the worry seems to be super high today. I always get scared when we leave phone calls on a negative note that it will be the last phone call. As my parents were cooking dinner I was feelin very overwhelmed and all it took was an "Are you ok kid?" For it to just all to start coming out. I just cried and cried in my room for awhile. Now I'm a bit better but I still feel numb and super worried and my mind is so busy.
On a positive note. I attended a beautiful wedding last night that made me miss my husband more than anything. They were so adorable and the wedding was so fun. I got to see people I havent seen in a long time.
Sorry for my sad post. But... I figured most of the people who read this if you do are my Marine wife friends.... and I'm sure they know these days. This part of the deployment seems to be the hardest. It feels like its never going to end and I just get so torn down somedays. I breathe and I feel like Im going to cry. I just cant wait until April......
where are you?

*good thoughts for Matthew*

My new FAV movie....

I am going to write a super short post to say my new favorite movie is....
Nick and Norah's Infinite Playlist!!!


Ill blog again but im tireeeedd. Mmm what a good movie.

Such a busy busy week ahead....

Ah. I cant believe it. 9 days until I am on my way down to NC. How scary right? Ahhhhh. I can't wait to take George to Wilmington and show him the places Matt and I always go. And to go to Swansboro and get breakfast at Yanas!!! :)
So today I am hopefully buying furniture. I know it sounds stupid to buy furniture before you move down but its a long story and pretty much its to lower my anxiety lol.
Tomorrow is Em's Bachelorette Party. Gunna be pretttty fun. How exciting right? Everyone is getting so old. I cant believe Em and Jake will finally be married in 3 days!!!!
I got my dress for their wedding the other day. Im off to go find a cardigan to wear over it tho so i dont freeze to death here in good ol NY
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Hopefully its not too bright and I dont stand out like a sore thumb, but I got a good deal and I thought it would work for like Britt's rehearsal dinner too cuz im sure ill be broke in June haha. But its a little big on me and hopefully i dont grow into it :)
Dont mind the mess in the background of the picture either.....
Northhhhhhhhh Carrrrollllinaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa I cant wait.
April where are you? All I want is to hold my hubby. Especially after all this wedding business!!

11 days and counting....

So sadly a change in plans for the moving process. My best friend Brittney and her fiance Josh can't come down afterall... My cousin Courtney was going to stay with me for a week along with them. Now none of them can come. :(. Stupid economy.
So... now we are leaving on Friday again. Yes. Friday the 13. Eeek. Me , My mom, my step dad, Matt's dad, and his step sister. I convinced them to stay two nights with me haha. So thats why we are leaving Friday. Ugh. Im so nervous and excited at the same time. Hopefully I can get internet set up down there so I can keep people updated!
Saturday I went to the local cheerleading competition all day. I was proud of my hometown. They didnt win overall but they won thier division. I felt like I wanted to be right back in high school watchin it!!!! Man did I feel so old!
After the cheer comp. I rushed home for my nephew Haydens birthday party. I love watchin him on his birthday. He is so so happy. Check out him and his candles and his cake!!
Today I went shoppin with mom for what may be my last time shopping out at the Arnot Mall before I move down!!
I found an awesome dress for Emily and Jakes wedding on saturday. I really wish I had a black cardigan sweater or somthin to go over it tho. It was a 100$ dress at Bonton for 15 bucks. Ill post pictures sometime.
I asked my mom if she liked the dress and she did. The the lady in the dressing room next to me came out and was like oh my god that is so cute and after we walked out she grabbed the last one off the rack and bought it without trying it on. haha. I am quite the sales lady :)
Lets hope for subbing tomorrow. Just not Kindergarten haha
xoxoxo
**good thoughts for Matthew!